Monday 21 January 2008

God is soooo good!

I'm in college :P. Our teacher realised that we won't be able to concentrate even if he teaches so he let us go. Why can't we concentrate? :P. It's because we just got our results at approximately 11.50am. And truly truly praise God and thank God.

The AS exam was like a roller coaster physically and mentally. Especially when I felt I didn't do good in my physics practical, my chemistry practical, and my chemistry paper 2. And also the anxiety over the possibility that I'll have to retake the exams if I don't do so good. Putting my faith and trust in God was a real challenge for me. But it paid off. I was just praying yesterday, asking God to prepare my heart for the worst. I don't want to put my hopes too high, because I was afraid I would cry if my results didn't reach my high hopes. But at the same time, I really do hope and pray that I'll get good results, so that I won't need to retake the exam. And as I was praying, it struck me to give thanks to God, even before my results are out. And even as I was giving thanks and praising God for my results (which was not known yet), I truly felt peace and comfort and my heart was really prepared. My results will make an impact in my future. God has my future in His hands, and it is a beautiful future. Whatever my results may be God will give me what's best for my future. And truly, He has given me the best.

God, You've always guided me in life. From the day I was born till this very day. You've guided every academic results and even when I felt like I wasn't going to do good, You did the impossible. This time it's the same thing again. I felt like I didn't do good for AS exam, but this time I felt like I was really going to do really bad. But Father, You've guided me all my life, and I know You won't bring me down this time. And God, I really thank You and praise You, because once again You did something that I felt was the impossible. Truly God, with You NOTHING is impossible. Father, here are my results. I commit them to Your hands, and I just glorify Your name for it. This are not my results. It's Yours. Thank You Big Daddy. And I love You!

By the way, I got 3 A's and 1 B. B for Thinking Skills. Praise God!! =)

*Something funny I want to share. When I told my father I got B for thinking skills, he said, "Aiya, I know you cannot think wan." Hahaha!!!

“Have faith in God,” Jesus answered. “I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours…” Mark 11:22-24

Friday 18 January 2008

Prepare my heart oh Lord.

Father, I put my trust in You. I put my faith in You. Father I believe that whatever happens, You know what's best for me. Father, please prepare my heart, please strengthen my heart. I don't want to put my hopes too high, but I do hope for the best. But Father, please prepare my heart, prepare me for the worst. Heavenly Father, help me not to be nervous, help me not to be anxious, but to just trust You. I just commit this into Your mighty hands. You know my life even before I was born. And I trust that whatever I get is Your will. Father You've guided me so far in life, in every exam and the results, and I know You won't forsake me or leave me in this. Whatever I get, Father I just want to thank You and praise You. Father, help me not to cry if they're bad, but strengthen me. Father, I give You all the glory and praise. Thank You Lord Jesus. And I'm sorry for the times when I disappointed You. In Jesus most precious name I pray, Amen.

I will not be afraid...for Thou art MY GOD!

My message

First of all, I haven't been checking my blog since my last post on funny pictures. And today I realised that there were new comments on the post "Continuation of girls camp 2007 --- Homosexuality and the Ex-gay Lifetstyle"

The reason why I posted all the notes I got from Pastor Edmund's workshop is to share with others what I have learnt and also to hear other people's opinions, because I do believe that everyone has a right to let their voices be heard. But even as I read the new comments today, I really regret posting the post. The post has travelled as far as into Pastor Edmund's blog! (malu-fied)

I realised that this post has hurt certain people, and I am afraid would hurt Girls Christian Camp. But what is done is done, so I just want to say I'm sorry 1st of all to Pastor Edmund and Pastor Amanda for anything in this post which has offended you. I do hope you will forgive me. 2nd of all I want to say sorry to Yuki, if this post has caused you hurt. I will follow Pastor Amanda's advice and to pray for you, for I believe God has great things in store for you, just as He has in store for everyone else.

Lastly, I just want to wish Pastor Edmund and Pastor Amanda all the best in life and their ministry and truly pray that God will use them to the fullest for His glory. Also want to pray that God will continue to guide Yuki, to speak to her and to be ever so real in her life.

God bless.

Wednesday 9 January 2008

Funny pics

Am I really long winded? Cuz I'm starting to realise that most of my posts (the written one) are really long. LOL.


Anyway, for a little entertainment >.<. Here're some funny and cute pictures.


Want to go toilet? Sure. It's just THERE! Haha!


Do you speak-eh dee english??


Lost : Have you seen this cat? If you have please contact 03-********. Urgent! Very very precious cat! Please call us if you see her!


I just asked once! XD

Hahaha!

On the 1st day of college....

It’s 11.14pm on Tuesday (8/1/2008). I can’t go online now because my brother is using the internet to watch Dragon Ball Z. Boys… LOL. So anyway, I just feel like blogging and writing down my thoughts even though I can’t post it now. Today’s the 1st day of college after a “LONG” holiday. (my brother has 3 months of holiday now that’s why he’s so free to watch Dragon Ball Z) It was pretty cool. I mean I saw my new timetable and it looked so awesome. There were times when I start at 9am and some times I finish at 1 or 2pm. But there is one day that I finish at 4pm, because of Chemistry lab.

Today, in class, I don’t know why but I suddenly felt so hyper. LOL. I was… yea, pretty noisy. Maybe it’s because I miss college? *shrugs*. Almost everyone came to college today with a new haircut. LOL. Some cut their hair short, some changed their hairstyle, it was pretty fun to see all different kinds of hairstyles. Mine was the worst. Don’t know why but today my hair was really frizzy. Maybe I didn’t put enough hair cream. XD

AS results are coming out on 20 something Jan!! :S. Was almost freaking out today. I mean I always felt like I could have done better in the exam and I always thought of the worst case senario : don’t get A for AS and no good university will take me. But every time I think of that I think of this : God has been so good to me. He has guided me in every aspect of life. He has taken care of my education, my future etc. What makes me think that He is going to pull me down this time? I know my God won’ leave me nor forsake me. I know that He has a bright future for me and I trust that He will continue to guide me whether in education or anything else, because He HAS always been guiding me anyway. So yea, I will not freak and put my faith in God :P.

Today I got a taste of what it was like to be in the same college as my cousin. Hehe yup. Melissa’s in taylors college …with me! Didn’t get to have lunch with her though because our lunch breaks were different. But she wasn’t alone so it’s cool. After college, my aunt fetched me and Melissa to Melissa’s house. I had to spend a few hours in my aunt’s house because my parents have gone to my father’s company dinner and my brother went out for dinner with his friends in mega mall.

Unfortunately, nobody asked me out to dinner tonight so I was supposed to be home alone. But my mom didn’t like the idea of me being home alone at night so she asked me to crash in my aunt’s house for a while. Hehe. Anyway, Miss Melissa was rushed to the ER a few minutes after we touched down at her house. Ok ok fine, it wasn’t that dramatic. But yea, Melissa came down with a terrible sore throat, high fever and a pounding headache so my aunt had to fetch her to the docs (nope sorry, not ER). And you know what? This wonderful cousin of mine brought a really small bottle of water to college, not even 500ml, because she said it’s heavy to bring water to college. =.=“ Hello??? Water ain’t fashion alright. LOL. Drink more water lar Melissa Foong! Put some sense into her. LOL. No wonder she fell ill.

Anyway, my parents came to fetch me at about 10.30 or something, and on the way home, I told my mom about my friend who got conditional offer from Cambridge. (I will not disclose her name here because…it’s private!! LOL) Congrats to that girl by the way, you know who you are ;). So yea I was telling my mom about the good news and also I found out that my aunt’s friend’s nephew (who also happens to be in taylors) also managed to get a conditional offer from Cambridge. Cool right? Congrats to you people yea!

And my mom was like saying, “why didn’t you apply for Cambridge.” And I said, “I know I’m not going to get any offer from Cambridge, why waste money to apply?” (It’s about 50 pounds I think) And she was saying, “you haven’t even try, how do you know you’re not going to get any offer?” And she started saying that I don’t want to fight for the best and I don’t want to try… things like that. But honestly, if you ask me, do I regret not applying for Cambridge (or Oxford)? I’ll say this : Definitely not. I don’t want to fight because I don’t want it in the first place. I wasn’t going to give my money to Cambridge or Oxford (no offence >.<). And I’m not very smart. Seriously I’m not. I’m pretty average and honestly, I’m happy to be that way. I mean I do feel happy for my friends who are really really smart, but I don’t envy them (or at least I don’t think I do). Because I’m happy for who I am. Average. And I couldn’t ask for more :) So there, all my thought written down. Or at least, typed. Haha. I’m going to go to bed now. Feeling pretty tired. Was sneezing a lot after sending Melissa to bed. Scared I’ll get her virus. LOL. So I’m drinking lots of water and eating oranges (vitamin C mah). Haha no offence, Melissa. Get well soon yea! And also to my other cousin, Richard. Get well soon, boy. I really miss the great times with ya. You know, when I was lonely in college (during the 1st few days last year) I just needed to call/sms Richard and he’ll keep me company. He is a really great person, and I’m happy and proud to be his cousin :P. So long, fair well, I wish to say goodnight……zzzzzz

Thursday 3 January 2008

2008!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL!!!!! Sorry for the late wish. Celebrated 2008 in India. India....no words to describe it.

My trip in India was 50% good 50% terrible. The thing I love about India was the historical places. We went to loads of places like the Bangalore Palace, the Amer Fort, the Red Fort, the
Qutub (something, forgot the name), and loads more. But the best among all was....the Taj Mahal. It was simply beautiful. The pictures are still in my dad's laptop. Will post it here when I've collected them. And oh yea, I also loved the hotels :P. But the thing I hated about India was the dust, the dirty and smelly toilets (wooh, beat Malaysia no time) and the driving (van and cab drivers). Terrible. Worse than terrible.

Where should I start? We landed in Bangalore, India at night. And my dad's friend was there to pick us up (He's got a flat in Bangalore which is where we were going to stay). Drivers in India are crazy. Seriously. On the way to the flat was like a live musical performance or something. Our cab driver was horn-
ing every now and then, and so are the drivers around. Sometimes they just horn for no reason. And there are no proper lanes. The drivers just change lanes whenever they like. Scary! And U-turns...gosh, so super scary. Can't even describe it. And oh yea by the way, our cab driver in Bangalore...was a 18 year old guy.

But...it is quite sad in India. I mean, there are either super duper rich people in India, or super duper poor people in India. There are no
mediocre people. And it's just sad especially when we were in the cabs or the vans, whenever we stop at the traffic lights, there'll be beggars knocking on our windows asking for money. Most of them...are young children. They either beg for money, sell things like newspapers, or do a performance for you. Once in Delhi, there was this girl, she knocked on our window and started dancing and doing tricks with her hands in the middle of the road. I mean, it was so dangerous. A motorcycle could have knocked her or something. And in historical places where we were sight seeing, there were beggars coming after you for money. Again, mostly small kids. It's just so sad. No kid should ever have this kind of childhood.

Then in Bangalore we went to this temple. Newly built. And it was huge, really really huge. And obviously costed alot of money. And it really got me thinking. The amount of money spent building that temple could have been used to help the poor. To keep those kids off the streets. To give them a better childhood. Of course, alot of people want their temple/mosque/churches to be really nice and beautiful and all. But, shouldn't God's people be put 1st before God's house? What do you think? Honestly I think the money should be used to help people, the poor and the sick, rather than to build a really big house of worship.

Anyway, India was a real eye opener for me. I mean it really got me thinking alot. Especially seeing those children. It wasn't a really good holiday, but it was a good experience, and a good eye opener.

Oh well, college's gonna start soon. 7th January. And honestly, I'm not ready to go back to college. It's gonna be a really hectic and stressful year. Trial's going to be around March and Finals is going to be around May. Gosh. I hope I won't push God aside and be so caught up with work. Sigh. I really need Him.

And oh yea, my AS results should be coming out soon. I'm just going to put my trust and faith in Him. Whatever happens, God, I'll still thank You and praise You!