Spring Cleaning

My room is a mess.

My life is a mess.

It’s time to spring clean. 1^st my room, then my life.

There are so many things in my life right now that I need to set straight. So many things about myself I want to change. It’s amazing how spending time with people can really open one’s eyes.

I’ve been looking through my blog the past couple of days. I don’t recognize that person. I don’t know who this person is right now. She was so passionate, so curious, always questioning, always challenging. Always encouraging. Now, she’s just like a sloth. Can’t be bothered. Cut off from the real world. Drowning herself in nonsense. Being obtuse.

Looking at some of the comments really stirred something in me. A comment as late as last year spoke of how my blog post gave her encouragement. How finding my blog made her thank God. It’s amazing given that my last post was in 2009.

I want that person back. I want to continue encouraging people. Continue to tell people of what He has done in my life. Continue to tell people of my journey with Him.

I want to stop being afraid. Insecure. Obtuse. It’s time to change. I know it won’t happen overnight. I know it won’t happen anytime soon. But by God’s grace and strength, I believe He will help me.

Matthew 7:7 - "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

Lord, I ask to that you change me. To be a better person.