Almost there

There. I spent the whole day today cleaning my room. It was a pig sty before that, thank God I don’t have a picture to show that >< Haha. No before, but here’s after:

Organised clothes. And yes, I know I have a lot of clothes. Half of which I don't seem to wear. Hmm..

I see my floor!! *oops, a hint of how bad it was before*

Stacked books. =)

Laundry tomorrow, and I’m practically done. =) Oh and I’ll need to wash my hiking shoes. That’ll probably take a while.

Room check. Next, life.

There was a point in my life (a couple of weeks ago in fact) where I just gave up and self-destructed. I just couldn’t care less, and was slacking so much. I knew I was going to regret it later, but at that time I didn’t care. Now, I do care. There’s so much to do. All the work just piled up. And I regret so much now. I remember clearly thinking at that time, “There’s still time. Don’t worry. It’s okay to have a day off. There’s still time.” It’s amazing how time literally flies. Day turned into weeks. There’s no time now. But I’ll try to make the most out of it.

So, a note to all those out there who are thinking of self-destructing. Don’t. In whatever way. Could be you just cut yourself off from God. From your parents. Or it could be that you just let go of your obligations and responsibilities, knowing that there’ll be consequences later, but still don’t care. My advice. Don’t. You’ll definitely regret it later. Just like how I am regretting it now.

Hang in there! Don't give up! Don't self-destruct. Instead, rejoice. It's a choice. Your choice.

Spring Cleaning

My room is a mess.

My life is a mess.

It’s time to spring clean. 1^st my room, then my life.

There are so many things in my life right now that I need to set straight. So many things about myself I want to change. It’s amazing how spending time with people can really open one’s eyes.

I’ve been looking through my blog the past couple of days. I don’t recognize that person. I don’t know who this person is right now. She was so passionate, so curious, always questioning, always challenging. Always encouraging. Now, she’s just like a sloth. Can’t be bothered. Cut off from the real world. Drowning herself in nonsense. Being obtuse.

Looking at some of the comments really stirred something in me. A comment as late as last year spoke of how my blog post gave her encouragement. How finding my blog made her thank God. It’s amazing given that my last post was in 2009.

I want that person back. I want to continue encouraging people. Continue to tell people of what He has done in my life. Continue to tell people of my journey with Him.

I want to stop being afraid. Insecure. Obtuse. It’s time to change. I know it won’t happen overnight. I know it won’t happen anytime soon. But by God’s grace and strength, I believe He will help me.

Matthew 7:7 - "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

Lord, I ask to that you change me. To be a better person.

Buck Up

*Takes a deep breath*

Hi. =)

So many things to say, but don't know where to start. Well, first, I'm coming back to blogging (let's see how long it'll last this time haha). So many things happened since my last post. Happiness. Sadness. Disappointments.

At this very moment, disappointment overwhelms everything else. Disappointment at myself. But I choose not to sit and sulk. I choose, to change. I choose to be a better me.

Time to buck up. Time to grow up. Time to come back to the right path. I've veered off too far. But God, bring me back.

"Higher than the mountains that I face

Stronger than the power of the grave

Constant through the trial and the change

One thing remains

One thing remains

Your love never fails it never gives up it never runs out on me

In death and in life I'm confident and covered by the power of your great love

My debt is paid there's nothing that can separate my heart from your great love."